Can Someone Help?

I just cant find
That word for you
The word that describes
How I see u in my mind.

I need a special word
One that no one else uses
Maybe I should make one up
But then it wont make any sense.

I've been calling you handsome
But it doesn't seem right
I need a better one
But I cant think of any.

If only there was someone out there
Who could help me in this time of despair
If there are any other words that i could use
To describe how that special guy looks.

I don't like using the words "hot" or "sexy"
They're childish to me
I need a grown up word
One that's special for me.

If you could help
Please say so
You wouldn't understand
How thankful I would be.