Shit

So I haven't written a post in a while. But that's because I had a pretty shitty weekend. As you know Friday was shit (does that count as the weekend?).
Saturday was good because I had an audition in the morning and I think I impressed the director with my sense of humour and he was really nice as well so if I get a part in the play it will be so much fun.

The rest of Saturday was pretty good until late at night when someone sent me an anonymous ask on my Tumblr which scared the shit out of me because no one has ever told me something like that over the internet. I'm not allowed to tell you what was said though because it was an old rumor that ruined someones life...
Jeremy's.

I asked him about it and it didn't turn out how I had expected it too. It was one of the worst decisions I have made in my life. It could've ruined our whole friendship.

I went to bed that night and cried myself to sleep because I thought it was over. I thought that maybe things wouldn't go back the way they were. I had a dream about him that night but its too complex to tell in words. It was actually more of a nightmare. I woke up crying because it was like one of the stories that I had written in English had come true. I wrote that story because its something that i don't want to have happen to me.

Sunday was shitty because I was worried about Jeremy and what had happened the night before. I had so much stuff on my mind that I had to send him a message on fb even though he was out. It took me probably 15 minutes to write that message because I wanted to show him how much he means to me.

That afternoon I had acting classes which was really fun because we were like lifting people up and stuff but now I have a really sore shoulder....anyway we got to play with balloons and juggling balls so that was fun.

When I got home after acting I had a talk to a friend that knows the most about Jeremy, Naomi. I had to talk to someone, and because she knows him best I figured that she'd know about this and she did she told me everything that Jeremy had told her about it. It made me feel better. I then talked to Jeremy on Skype later that night and we had a chat about it and I told him that I felt really bad about bringing it up and stuff and he told me not to worry and I think its sorted out now. So that night I went to sleep feeling much better.

Yesterday was a pretty boring day not much happened so I won't bother telling you about it.

Today after school I got to hang with Jeremy, Naomi and Naomi's girlfriend. It was really fun because it's the first time that my parents had let me hang in the city with friends. Today I worked out that I'm not so good at this dating stuff....but you have to excuse me because I've only had 1 boyfriend and it's been a year since we went out so still trying to work out how it works if you know what i mean. HAHA

So my week is getting better, I've been a lot happier (mainly because Jeremy wants me to smile all the time and its kinda working so yer).

I probably wont post much during the week because not much interesting stuff happens but if anything does I'll consider writing a post XP

Talk to you sometime in the future :D <3